To play or not to play?

Do you know what I hate most about myself? I worry too much. I never want to let anyone down. I'm so uptight about everyone else's feelings I don't do anything for myself. I'm having a conflict between myself. I'm a softball player. I've been playing travel ball since I was 10. This year I played J.V. softball for Northview. I hated it. I don't want to upset my parents or coach though. My parents have been paying for me to play travel ball for at least 2 years and they keep telling me that I'm really good. Not to be cocky, but I AM good. My dad made it worse the other day by stating, "The only reason you play travel ball is to play high school ball!" I'm considering being a normal kid for once and not playing next year. Don't get me wrong, I love softball, I just don't love playing it at Northview. You end up practicing for at least 6 months just to play 1 month. It's seriously stupid. You get yelled at for doing something wrong and run your legs off just for ONE MONTH OF PLAYING! Like I said before, I hate it. In my head I'm trying to list my choices, but I have no clue what to do! Please leave comments... I need every bit of help!